Sunday, December 11
Saturday night I experienced an extended profound sense of unbridled happiness!
Laurie and I went out to attend the annual Cascadia Wildlands Wonderland auction. This is a fine event, for a wonderful organization, attended by staunch environmentalists, who think just like us. Not only are they our ‘peeps’, but some are our best friends.
From the time I entered the hall I continually bumped into friends. Their genuine interest and profound concern for me was extremely heartwarming and quite touching! At every turn they would ask, “No Mike, how are you really doing?” They legitimately wanted to know firsthand, exactly where I was and how I felt while on this cancer journey. They wanted a real, true, deep interaction – nothing fake! I could sense the emotion in their voice, the intensity in their eyes, the softness in their face, the kindness in their heart and the warmth in their embrace. They were tender, caring, compassionate, generous, fervent, warm, kind, and devoted. I truly felt the space between us fill with love – an absolutely incredible, overwhelming, awesome feeling!
There was no hint of feeling sorry for me………….it was just plain caring. They solely wanted to help. They wanted to be there for me no matter what my need. I got the sense that they would do anything in their power to whisk my disease away and make the world right for me (and them).
Over and over this happened, until I realized that there was a grand interconnectedness between us all! We were all feeling, responding and sharing in our humanity! I was phenomenally impressed and extremely elated!
I whispered to Laurie: “I am so happy to be alive!”
Mikey “D”,
I could not have felt you any better than right now reading, feeling, sensing, touching, holding, caring, hoping, connecting, trusting and loving you! My heart is with you…
Do you remember when I couldn’t write my Christmas cards until I skied in the snow one time. Well, vicariously, through you I will set that pen to the cards. Thank you! Interesting, but last week I felt you a bit closer to Northern California. Now I wonder if you made that trip to UCSF around then. You know how those feelings work in me. You are in my thoughts daily in so many good ways. Healing hugs. Lana