Saturday, July 16
It has been 95 hours since the end of Chemo #5. Presently, I am relaxing on the couch after our six-person (and one dog) Manzanita morning beach walk – flat, slow, serene and friendly. I also find myself feeling significantly better than I would have expected. After all I’ve already experienced four prior chemotherapy treatments and you’ve read the stories of anxiety, fatigue and fog!
The word that comes to mind is: Allora. I learned this word when studying Italian a few years back. I know it as a word that does not really translate directly; it seems to be a word that just takes up space – a pause word, a waiting word. Think about well in English. I focus on this word because it feels like I am in a waiting phase. I happily motivate around with friends in this gorgeous ocean setting waiting to see how my body will fully react to chemo #5. Is the anxiety coming? Will I be able to think straight? Will I be dragged down with that vicious physical fatigue?
So for now, Allora. Let’s wait and see!
What a lovely picture of you among the flowers! Allora sounds just right. Let it be.
Here is a positive take on the overwhelming fatigue. Your body is in need of A LOT of rest! All of your healthy, non cancer cells need you to take heed that they are in repair mode. Cooperate please:) Love you!